Wrong Flight

Lately it's been raining like crazy every single day. In fact, I can count on one hand the number of days it's not been raining since I have gotten back to Australia. This makes me think that I have somehow gotten on a wrong flight (in one of my many connecting flights) and have ended up somewhere in the UK instead. For whatever reason, the UK also happen to have a house exactly like mine in Australia, with the same people, and the same neighbourhood. So tomorrow I'm getting on a flight to go back to the real Australia where it's supposed to be summer, full of sunshine, mozzies and stars.

Meanwhile I decided to go on the world wide web to search for the reasons behind this above average (to put it mildly) rainfall. Some people think that it's the La Nina effect: where the air surface pressure is lower than normal in western Pacific which allows warm water to elevate to the surface. With the evaporation of this warm water, clouds form and the trade winds blow these clouds all the way over to the east coast of Australia, causing torrential downpour. La Nina is the opposite effect of El Nino which is what some people say have caused the draught for the last couple of years. Anyways, instead of reading my bullshit, you should check out wiki yourselves.

With this, I would like to ask a question, why does everything have symmetries?

Indecisive

Whatever Jescka said about me being indecisive hit the nail on the head. Then again, I have this innate stubbornness that sometimes gets in the way. I no longer have that much time on my hand but I'm now making time to think about these things.

虽然我写的是悲，可是我不悲。
虽然我写的很多，可是只有几句才是我最想说的。
虽然我说的不多，可是我想法不少。
虽然我认为是错的，可是我还是做了。(Just because I can?)

Speaking in riddles again. I find amusement in that, sometimes content. Oftentimes what I do conflicts what I want. Or rather, what I want fluctuates, oscillates like a sin/cos function. This is the indecisiveness that Jescka speaks of.

又或者我根本不需要。人需要些什么？生或是活？你，我，他？传统，习惯还是个性？性格是你的还是别人的？原则可以改变吗？变了就代表你不够坚定吗？当你有你的坚持为何说是你倔强？错了是不可以弥补的，对的就一定要鼓掌吗？发生在他人身上的就一定会发生在你身上吗？问那么多干吗？反正不同的人有不相同的答案。为什么我这么介意所听的答案？

最近开始阅读林夕(老爷)写的 “原来你非不快乐”。还没看多少，但是已经有不少的佛理。夕爷写给千嬅最有佛性的逃不过 “电光幻影”，当中有两句我今天终于明白是什么意思了。人存在只想为了求证。而遗憾都只为了求证。

Perhaps that is why we are living (or maybe just surviving)? To prove ourselves. To prove what we believe is true. To prove we exist.